It’s been a while — too long really — since I posted here. Over the past several months I’ve dealt with a variety of family issues and had a health scare myself. Through it all I’ve continued to try to focus on making our house a home, and refined what “simplicity” means to me. I’m looking forward to sharing more about my journey in 2010.
I’ll admit that I’ve put off blogging because I allowed myself to believe that I’d gotten too far behind in posting, so why bother. I can’t believe I really believed that…but sadly it’s true. I was frustrated by my lack of consistency. That was somewhat brought on by life circumstance, and also from the belief that many days I had nothing exciting or new to share.
Reflecting back over the past months as one tends to do this time of year, I realize that I had many things to share, I am learning everyday, and most importantly I missed the writing, interacting, and “centeredness” that writing in a journal (of sorts) brings. I even stopped writing in my own personal journal for a season! Although I have continued to learn some new skills, I have also found a loss of focus in my steps toward simplicity and homemaking. Believe it or not, I think the lack of journal/blogging is related to my lack of focus. The writing keeps me accountable and motivated, and it keeps me connected with others on the journey!
Enough explaining! I am putting the past behind and moving forward. Not as a “resolution” that I too often fail to keep past January 5th. No, I’m freeing myself from the pressure of HAVING to write, and then not writing because I felt guilty because I DIDN’T write. Crazy, isn’t it? Instead I’m writing out of a heart of gratitude, and a real desire to share my journey with others. Folks, the way things are going, we’re going to need each other’s support more and more in the coming months and years.
So, what does this all mean? I guess it means that I’m going to forgive myself more quickly for failures, and hope that you’ll understand if I miss a few days now and then. A good friend has encouraged me with the thought that taking the pressure off myself to write will most likely mean I’ll do more of it — I pray she is correct!